Heart of Gold

I never missed someone so bad in my life.  There is definitely a giant void in my life where there once was ... my brother.  How do you put into words who someone is?  He was everything.  The million and one things we talked about, the many things we shared, the way he would just listen when I am off on one of my many tangents.  Every step of the way.  I could count on him.  A safe place to be.  I didn't have to pretend to be someone I wasn't.  He loved me for who I am, however screwed up that may be.  He understood me, and accepted me.  I've loved him all my life.

And now he's gone.

And I feel so alone.

I just never could have imagined how much life would suck without him.

And now I don't have to imagine anymore.